Destined 遐想 - Chapter 36

Chapter 36: Dinner Date

*Ring ring ring*

I reached over and took a look at the alarm clock, it was already 3pm. I had slept through lunch, and it was now already time for me to take my medicine, and...

Ying's thoughts: If I want to meet Roy for dinner at 6.30pm at the Square, I would have to get up now and get myself ready... But do I want to see him again?

I tousled my hair, and got out of my bed, and walked towards the kitchenette to look for something to eat before taking my medicine. I opened the fridge and saw a bowl of porridge with a note on top. I took out the bowl and opened the note.

Ying,
Remember to have some food before you take your medicine.
Here's some porridge from earlier....
I know it doesn't taste fantastic, but at least it'll fill you up before the medicine goes in.
Roy
PS: Warm up the porridge first before you eat it!

I smiled. A warm feeling floated in my heart. For the entire period I was studying here, this was the first time I felt warmth in a foreign land. No doubt my course mates were nice to me, but this just felt was different. I don't know why, but I felt like I wasn't alone on a day when others are spending with their families. And I was alone. Cos almost the entire hostel's students have gone home for Christmas. Except me. I didn't want to waste the money going back to Singapore and back after a few days. So here I am. Spending a family holiday alone in a ghostly deserted hostel, in a foreign country. Fantastic...

I placed the bowl into the microwave and heated it up. After that I finished it in the kitchenette, before taking my medicine. I took the bowl and spoon to the sink to wash up. And as I was washing up. My mind wandered off to the note...

I'll be waiting for you at the Square at 6.30pm...
I'll be waiting there till I see you...

I shook my head and finished my washing and walked back to my bed.

Ying's thoughts: I guess there's no reason why I should not go, since it's an apology dinner. And he was mean to me the entire time, so why shouldn't he apologise? It's only normal courtesy. Nothing more. Yeah I should go. And eat as much as my current sick body can take. So smart of him to give a treat now when I am sick, so I can't eat that much...

I nodded my head firmly, and walked over to gather my things to take a shower and get myself ready. I selected my favourite cream knitted sweater and dark blue skinny jeans, and I took out my deep dark purplish red corduroy jacket. I went for a shower, and got back to the hostel to change into the clothes I prepared, and did my make-up. When I was ready, I took a look at my image in the mirror.

Ying's thoughts: Hmmm... Done... Looking good... WAIT... Why am I dressing up to meet him? It's just a casual dinner.

I walked over and sat down at the sofa. I took a look at the time, it was just 4pm. I decided it was too early for me to leave the hostel. Cos I didn't want to appear to eager. So I switched on the TV to watch some programme.

Probably due to the medicine, I felt drowsy after a while, and dozed off on the sofa.
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Roy was standing outside in the freezing cold at the Square waiting for me at 6pm. He arrived early, and had brought a stalk of yellow rose for Ying, as the shop owner told him that yellow roses represent apology.

He watched as couples and families walked by him happily. He took a look at the yellow rose and smiled. Then he looked at his watch. 6.30pm.

Roy's thoughts: Where is she? Will she come?
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I startled awake on the sofa. I looked at the time immediately. 7.30pm.

Ying's thoughts: Oh no!!! I overslept again...

I got up and rushed to the door, and down the stairs. I ran all the way to the bus stop. After waiting for 5 minutes, no bus came. I looked at the schedule. The next bus was 30 minutes later. I started running up the road, trying to hail a cab. But after waiting for another 20 minutes, there was no cab in sight too. I took a look at my watch. 8pm.

Ying's thoughts: It's been 1.5 hours already... I think he must have gone off already... No point for me to go down now...

I started walking disappointedly back to my hostel. And sat myself down on my sofa, and stared at the TV blankly. Slowly, I dozed back off to sleep. Without realising that I had forgotten to do something very important....
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It was already 9pm at the Square. Roy was freezing in the cold, as he had been standing there for 3 whole hours, and he was worried sick about Ying. He didn't know if she was still so sick that she couldn't come out to meet him, or she just didn't want to meet him. He couldn't take it any more, he couldn't wait another second. He ran towards the main road and hailed a cab.
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Roy dashed up the stairs and got to my hostel door, just as he was about to knock, he realised that the door wasn't locked. He opened the door slowly and noticed that I was lying on the sofa without a jacket on. He ran over hurriedly and shook me worriedly.

Roy: YING!!! Are you okay?!!!

I opened my eyes drowsily, and I saw Roy's worried face looking at me.

Ying: I...

Roy pulled me into his arms and gave me a hug.

Roy: I'm so glad you are alright... I thought something happened to you when I noticed the door unlocked and you were lying here unconscious on the sofa... I thought...

I was dumbfounded by his actions. And I didn't know how to react. I pushed myself away from him awkwardly.

There was an awkward silence. As Roy realised what he had just done.

Roy's thoughts: What got into me? I just got to know her. We're not even friends yet. Why am I so worried about her? What am I doing? Hugging her like that?

Roy: Sorry...

Ying: It's okay... I should be the one apologising, cos I... stood you up... I'm sorry...

Roy looked at me. Then he suddenly remembered the rose that he had bought for me. He searched around for it frantically.

Ying: What's wrong? Did you lose something?

Then he saw it, lying on the floor, as he had dropped it when he dashed in straight to me on the sofa. He got up and picked it up. And he walked back over to me.

Roy: This is for you...

He passed the rose to me.

Ying: Thanks...

I took the rose from him and looked at it quizzically.

Ying: Why are you give me a yellow rose?

Roy: I wanted to give you something to show my sincerity, so I wanted to buy some flowers, but I didn't have enough money for a whole bouquet, so I bought one stalk... And the shopowner said that yellow rose represents apology... So I bought it for you.

Ying: Oh... I see... Thanks... But you really shouldn't have... I'm not like other normal gals that love to be showered with flowers everyday... I just need...

Roy looked at me attentively. But I stopped myself from going further. This wasn't the kind of idle chat that I should be saying to Roy. I looked away.

Ying: Sorry I messed up your plans for the evening AGAIN... I guess I really bring bad luck to you... Sorry...

Destined 遐想 - Chapter 35

Chapter 35: Waiting for you...

Roy stormed out of my hostel and ran down the stairs. His anger and frustration made him run really fast, and the more he thought about what I just said, the more he felt angry, and that made him run even faster.

Roy's thoughts: Why am I so angry with her for asking me to leave? I'm not related to her in anyway, we're not even friends yet... We're mere acquaintances...

His pace started slowing down...

Roy's thoughts: She was nice enough to put me in for the night... But what have I done? I've made her fall sick... And pissed her off... Who am I to judge her for asking me to leave? Why must I be such a jerk to her? When she's been nothing but nice to me?

He stopped at the ground floor of the hostel. Roy turned his head and looked up at Ying's hostel.

Roy's thoughts: And now... The only person who's nice to be and treats me as myself has been driven away by me too...

He felt a pang of guilt hit him. And there was a tugging pain at his heart.

Roy's thoughts: No... I'm not going to let my only "friend" leave me so easily... There must be something I can do to get her back...

His eyes suddenly brightened after some thought, and he dashed off.

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I staggered out of my hostel with a blanket wrapped around me, and using the wall as my support. And when I leaned at the edge of the wall to see where Roy had gone to, I saw him dash out of the hostel block hurriedly.

Ying's thoughts: Maybe I was too harsh...

I shook my head determinedly.

Ying's thoughts: NO~~~ I am NOT!!! He's the one that's harsh to me...

Then I sighed.

Ying's thoughts: What's the point of thinking anyway? I am never going to see him again anyway...

I turned and staggered back into my hostel.
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*Ring ring*

I startled awake from my medicine-induced sleep. It was the doorbell ringing. I struggled to get to the door, with a blanket around me. I looked through the keyhole. There was no one there. I started walking back, thinking it was a wrong press of the doorbell. Just as I almost reached the bed, the bell rang again. This time I walked over and looked through the keyhole again. Nothing again. Annoyed, I opened the door abruptly.

Ying: HEY!!! What do you think you are doing??!!!! STOP....

I paused. When I opened the door, I saw no one outside. But when I looked down, I saw Roy squatting down, trying to push something under my door. I was frankly surprised to see him. He gave an embarrased smile and stood up. When he stood up, he towered over me. I took a step back, as I couldn't comfortably raise my head up to look at him without feeling dizzy.

Roy: Sorry... I just wanted to give you this...

I took the piece of paper from him. Before I could read it, he ran away.

Ying: HEY!!! What are you trying to do!!!

Puzzled, I opened the piece of paper, and read:

Sorry for my disturbing your Silent Night...
To make up for the inconveniences that I've caused you...
I would like to invite you to dinner tomorrow...
Do hope that you will accept my apology and come for the dinner...
I'll be waiting for you at the Square at 6.30pm...
See you there...
If you'll be late, don't worry...
I'll be waiting there till I see you...
Roy

Ying's thoughts: WHAT does he mean by this???!!!

I struggled back into my hostel room, and got back into my bed. As I pulled the blanket over myself. A slight grin appeared on my face. And I went back to sleep.

same old random snaps.... with joongie...

random snaps combined... our expressions r similar...


multiple poses neoprints!!!! gosh wat is he trying to do??!!!! ha ha ha ha....


a neoprint moment... don't our eyes look similarly BIG n watery??? hee hee....


we need more sleep... our eye bags n dark eye circles r so obvious...

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hee hee...
my itchy fingers itched to do something with the pics i have of joongie...
so here they are...
cheerio ;-D

Destined 遐想 - Chapter 34

Chapter 34: Are you okay?

Moans of discomfort woke Roy from his sleep. He opened his eyes and looked around my hostel room. The moans were coming from me. He got up and walked towards me. I was shivering in my sleep and yet breaking up in cold sweat.

Roy: Are you okay?

I didn't answer. He reached his hand to my head and felt it. My forehead was burning, and I was shivering badly. He grabbed my shoulders and tried to shake me awake from my delirious state.

Roy's thoughts: She must have caught a chill when she ran out after me without a jacket...

Roy: Ying... Wake up... Are you okay? You're having a fever... Where's your first aid box?!!! YING!!!!

I could hear his calls in my semi-conscious state, but I just couldn't gather enough energy to force open my eye lids. My entire body was drained of energy, and I was very cold and shivering like mad.

Roy: Aaaaahhhhh~ this girl...

He dashed away from my bedside and started rummaging my cupboards for the first aid box. After 15 minutes, he finally found it, and dug through it for panadol. He took two tablets and poured a glass of water and brought them to my bedside. He helped me up to a sitting position and shook my shoulders hard to try to wake me again. When he helped me up, I was able to open my eyes slightly, but I felt very dizzy, and my head was very heavy.

Roy: Ying... Here, take the medicine...

He opened his hand which held two tablets in his palm, and waited for me to take them. I couldn't move my hand. Seeing no response from me, he grabbed the tablets and placed them in my mouth. Then he reached for the glass of water and helped me hold it as I drank a bit to swallow the tablets. He then placed the glass down, and helped me back to a lying position.

Then Roy took the glass of water and walked to the kitchenette and looked in the fridge for a cooling pack. But I didn't have one. So he took a big bowl, poured a lot of ice cubes inside and poured some water in. He brought it over the my bedside. Then he rummaged through my cupboards and took out a face towel, and dipped that into the bowl of water. Then he squeezed it dry and applied it onto my forehead.

As I felt the cold towel hit my forehead, I felt a numbing feeling on my head. In my semi-conscious state, I could feel Roy repeatedly replacing the towel on my forehead whenever it was no longer cold. And he had managed to find a thermometer from my first aid kit, and he stuck it into my mouth to check my temperature. He also kept feeling my forehead ans his own to see if my fever had subsided.

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When I opened my eyes in the morning, I saw him sleeping soundly beside me on my bedside. After a long night of fussing over me, he had fallen asleep sitting beside me. His lush eyelashes covered his eyes, and bits of his hair had fallen across his face and covered his part of his face.

Ying's thoughts: Such a handsome face... with a caring heart... but why does he always hide himself away from people?

I reached out my hand, wanting to shift his hair away from his face. But then I retracted my hand at the last minute.

Ying's thoughts: What do you think you are doing?!!!! You must be mad inviting this total stranger back, and getting yourself into all this trouble...

*Beep beep beep beep*

It was the sound of an alarm. But I don't remember setting any. I saw him stir in his sleep, and immediately I closed my eyes to pretend that I am still sleeping. I felt his hand on my forehead. And I felt him place the thermometer into my mouth. Then he got up with the bowl of ice water to get more.

When he walked away from my bedside, I opened my eyes slowly. I still couldn't get out of bed, as once I tried to sit up I felt giddy, so I lied back down. When I heard him walking back, I pretended to get back to sleep again. When he got back, he took the thermometer from my mouth and looked at the temperature. I was still running a slight fever. So he wet the towel and placed it on my forehead, and went to get more panadol and water for me.

Roy: Ying... It's time to take your medicine...

He tapped me lightly on my shoulders to wake me. I pretended to open my eyes slowly, as if to wake from sleep. He helped me to sit up, and placed the tablets in my mouth, and helped me hold the glass as I drank the water.

Ying: Thanks....

Roy: No problem...

*Grrrr grrrrr*

It was the sound of my stomache growling from hunger.

Roy: You must be hungry after being so sick the entire night.

I kept quiet. Another growl emitted from my stomache.

Roy smiled.

Roy: I'll go whip up some porridge for you yeah... If you don't mind my cooking...

I nodded. Frankly, I was in no condition to get out of bed, let alone cook anything for myself. So he went to the kitchenette, and I lied back down on my bed to rest. Slowly as I listened to him rummaging around my kitchenette to cook the porridge, I dozed off.

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An hour later, Roy carried a bowl of hot porridge over to my beside. He placed it down on a chair beside me and tapped on my shoulder to wake me up.

Roy: Ying... The porridge is ready now...

I opened my heavy lids slowly and saw him bending over me tapping my shoulder. He helped me sit up on the bed and took the bowl back into his hand. I reached over, wanting to take the bowl from him. He dodged the bowl from my hands. I looked at him in surprise. I leaned forward and reached again, he dodged again.

Roy: It's okay... I'll feed you... You are still weak...

And he took the spoon and scooped a scoop of porridge. But instead of bringing it to my mouth, he brought it near to his, and started blowing gently at the spoon. I look at him in surprise.

Ying's thoughts: Why is he suddenly so caring and attentive towards me, making sure that the porridge is not too hot for me...

Roy: Here...

He placed the spoon in front of my lips, and I opened by mouth to take it in. There was an awkward silence when he was feeding me, and I was looking down most of the time, avoiding eye contact with him, as he was looking at me as I ate. After I ate about one-third of the porridge, I couldn't take in anymore.

Ying: Erm... Roy... I don't think I want any more porridge...

Roy: Why? You've only ate one-third of the bowl... You need to eat more to get well... Is my cooking that bad?

Upon saying this, he scooped a spoon of porridge and ate it. I looked at him in surprise as he ate with the spoon that he was feeding me with. He made a funny face, and looked at me apologetically.

Roy: Oh... it's a bit tasteless...

I smiled.

Ying: It's okay... Anyway I can't taste anything right now... My taste buds are numbed by the medicine taste... But I feel full already... So I don't think I can take anymore...

Roy: Oh... But won't you take just a few more spoonfuls? At least eat half of it...

He placed a spoonful of porridge in front of me, and looked at me pleadingly.

Ying: Okay... I'll try... But don't blame me if I vomit it out... It's not cos it's bad... But cos I can't take in anymore...

I leaned forward to take the spoonful of porridge into my mouth. I felt nauseous, as my stomach didn't really want to take the porridge in anymore. He had a concerned look on his face, and I tried my best to force the porridge down my throat. I took a deep breath and swallowed hard.

Roy: I think you better not take in anymore... You look like you are going to puke soon... I'll finish the rest for you...

Upon saying this, he started eating the rest of the porridge from my bowl.

Ying: Roy... You don't have to... We really shouldn't be sharing food... cos I am sick... I don't want to pass the fever to you...

Roy: It's alright... I think I can take it...

And he finished the rest of the porridge and brought the bowl to the kitchenette to wash up. After he finished washing up, he walked back out and sat down beside my bed.

Roy: Phew...

Ying: Erm... Roy....

Roy: Yeah?

Ying: Thanks for taking care of me through the night...

Roy's eyes widened with surprise.

Roy's thought: You mean you know what was happening the whole night when you were sick?!!! I thought you were asleep!!!!

Ying: I was semi-conscious... I couldn't respond, but I could sense things happening... But I wasn't sure if it was just me being drowsy from the medication and the fever, until I saw you in the morning when I woke up....

Roy: I see...

Ying: I just want to thank you... And apologise for ruining your Christmas eve's plans... Cos I made you miss the last bus and... be stuck here... with the sick me...

Roy: It's okay... I don't have anything else better to do anyway...

I was slightly irritated by his lack of appreciation for my efforts to thank him, as he seemed to be brushing off my words very tactlessly. I thought he was caring and I took pity on him. For a moment, I even thought there was something... I guess I was wrong, he is the same arrogant and nonchalant guy that I meet at the church, who laughed at me outwardly when I made a simple blunder. I decided that I shall make a polite but curt remark to shoo him out of my hostel, once and for all....

Ying: Well... Since it's already morning... And I am feeling much better, thanks to you... I guess I shan't hold you any longer... You can go ahead with your plans for the day... I can take care of myself from now on...

Roy looked at me annoyed.

Roy: So you're chasing me out now?

Ying: That wasn't what I said... I said you can go ahead with your own plans for the day... I shan't hold you back any longer...

I stared back at him matter-of-factly.

Roy stood up from his seat and walked towards the sofa where his stuff were, and took them. He grabbed his coat and walked towards the door.

Ying: Merry Christmas... to you...

I shouted out to him as he reached to open the door. He kept his back turned and responded faintly to me.

Roy: Merry Christmas to you too... I guess my leaving will be your best Christmas present for the year... Goodbye...

And he walked out of the hostel.

Ying: Hey... That wasn't what I meant...

I tried to get out of bed. But once I stood up, I felt my world spin, so I sat back down on the bed.

Ying's thoughts: *sigh* What's the point in explaining things to him anyway? He doesn't care how I think about him... Who am I to him? He just likes to bully and pick on me... That's all he wants to do... And I'm just a temporary refuge for him, since he has no where to go last night... Anyway, I am NEVER going to see him AGAIN... So what's the point of explaining things?

I got back into bed, and covered myself in my quilt and tried to sleep.

Destined 遐想 - Chapter 33

Chapter 33: Memories

Roy: I wish that we can be like this forever....

No response.

Roy: Ying...

Roy looked down at me who had my head on his chest, I did not move at all. He grabbed me by the shoulders and pushed me up so that he could get up. He took a look at me and realised that I had fallen asleep on his chest. I looked so at ease and calm now. Such a difference from earlier today when my cousins left. He placed my head on his shoulder and his arm around me. He looked up in the starry sky.

Roy's thoughts: How nice it would be if we could stay like this forever.... You lying in my arms, enjoying the sea breeze and the beautiful night sky... Together...

He looked down lovingly at me sleeping peacefully in his arms. I shivered in my sleep as a cold gush of wind blew towards us.

Roy's thoughts: She must be feeling cold. Better get her back inside the house before she catches a cold.

Not wanting to wake me, Roy slipped his hand below me and scooped me up into his arms and walked back to the house. He brought me to the guest room, and placed me on the bed and pulled the blanket over me. Then he sat on the bed beside me.

Roy's thoughts: Hmmmm... This reminds me of what happened after you invited me to your house for Christmas...
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Last Christmas eve...

I opened the door to my hostel hesitantly. I wasn't sure what I did was right. Roy did seem pitiful to be alone on Christmas eve. But he was a total stranger. And I am a total foreigner. So I didn't know if it was sane or even SAFE to bring him to my hostel. But there wasn't much to be done since I've already said the invite, and we can't stay outside as all the restaurants and shops are closed already. So I had no choice but to bring him back to my hostel, cos we have been loitering around aimlessly for two hours and I was tired and hungry.

Once I opened the door I rushed into the hostel and started making sure the place was decent enough to entertain guests. Fortunately for me, I had just cleared my laundry yesterday and the hostel was quite clean, apart from some notes and books laying around. I grabbed them and placed them on my study table.

Roy walked in behind me and shut the door behind him. His eyes scanned the hostel curiously.

Ying: Do have a seat, and make yourself comfortable.

He sat down on the nearest sofa, and started taking his jacket off.

Ying: Erm... I'm going to make some food for my dinner. Have you eaten yet?

He shook his head.

Ying: Erm... Do you want me to make some for you too? But I'm not a very good....

Roy: Yes.

He replied promptly, interrupting my words. I turned and started taking off my jacket and placing it on the hanger before going to the kitchenette to prepare the meal. His eyes followed me until I went into the kitchenette, which was blocked from his view. Then he started scanning my hostel again.

Roy's thoughts: So she's a foreign student... I wonder what is she studying...

He got up and walked towards my study table. He noticed some notes and textbooks on the table and picked them up to take a look.

Roy's thoughts: Video production... Interesting... So she's studying a media course... No wonder she's so forthright in her words... Sarcastic and piercing... Like a journalist....

He placed the books and notes back onto my study table. Then he walked towards the kitchenette, where I was squatting in front of the fridge, trying to think of what to prepare for the meal. He walked up to me and bend down behind me.

Roy: What are you doing?

When I heard his voice I got a shock and tried to stand up, but when I did, my head hit his chin, as his head was right above mine.

Roy: OUCH!!!

Ying: OUCH!!!

Both of us rubbed our injured spot gingerly. We looked at each other angrily.

Ying: WHAT do you think you are doing standing behind me like that?!!!

Roy: I was just wondering what are you doing squatting there, when you are supposed to be cooking. How would I know you would suddenly stand up?!!!!

Ying: YOU... *sigh* I can't believe this...

I buried my face back into the fridge and grabbed some tomatoes, onions, garlic and meat out to make spaghetti. I grabbed a packet of spaghetti and a pot and pan from the cupboard, and started filling the pot with water. Then I went about preparing the ingredients for the spaghetti sauce. Seeing me bury myself in cooking and ignoring him, he stepped out of the kitchenette and sat back on the sofa.

Roy's thoughts: Aish~ This girl is sooooo NOT gentle at all... She should be asking me how I am, whether I am hurt, instead of burying herself in cooking... *sigh* no sense of consideration at all... what a way to treat a guest... tsk tsk...

He rubbed his chin gingerly. Fortunately, the knock wasn't very hard, so he didn't hurt himself, but it just feel painful cos of the impact.

After what seemed like half an hour, the spaghetti was finally ready. And Ying plated it onto two plates and placed them on the table. She took her cutlery out and placed them on the table.

Ying's thoughts: Now I have to go get him to come and eat... *sigh* why am I always getting myself into such weird situations?!!!!

I walked out from the kitchenette. Roy was still sitting on the sofa, rubbing his chin. I walked up to him.

Ying: Weh... The food's ready... Come and eat if you want...

And I walked back to the kitchenette, not even waiting for his response. Roy looked up at me in surprise.

Roy: HEY.... Is this how you treat your guests?!!!! Not very cordial I must say...

Hearing his words, I felt more angry with myself for inviting him back, and for being such a busybody. I ignored his words and went back to the kitchenette. I took his plate of spaghetti and a set of cutlery and took it back outside. I placed it on the coffee table in front of the sofa and walked back to the kitchenette to eat mine. I didn't want to eat my Christmas Eve dinner with him. Cos everything he said or did is getting on my nerves, and I didn't want to flare up on Christmas eve...

Roy looked at the plate of spaghetti and me walking away from him.

Roy's thoughts: She must be mad for me taunting her... Why must I always say such mean things when she is just being kind inviting me, a total stranger, back to spend Christmas with her? And how dare I nitpick on her for not being a good host, when I haven't been a good guest either...

He leaned forward and started eating.

I sat down on the dining table and started on my plate of spaghetti.

Ying's thoughts: STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!! I swear I am NOT going to be NICE or KIND AGAIN!!!! So much for being kind...

I stuffed the spaghetti into my mouth angrily. After a while, I've finished my spaghetti and took my plate to wash at the basin. Roy heard me washing up and took his empty plate into the kitchenette. He walked over to the basin and placed it into the basin. I took it from the basin, and silently started soaping it. He didn't step away, but stood there as I was rinsing the plate and cutlery. After I was done washing up, I stepped away from the basin and walked out of the kitchenette, leaving Roy behind.

I took my washing up stuff and took my keys and walked out of the room to go to the restroom to wash up. I wanted to wash up and rest soon, so that he could leave my hostel room and leave me alone. I didn't want to see him, or even speak to him now. I was so angry with him.

Roy walked out of the kitchenette and saw me walk out of my hostel room, slamming the door behind me.

Roy's thoughts: She must really be mad with me... I'd better make myself scarce... And get out of her sight...

He took a piece of paper from my notepad, and wrote a note:
I don't know your name yet...
But I noticed on your books the word Ying, so I supposed that is your name....
I apologize for my bad behaviour at the church and at your hostel tonight...
I really shouldn't be doing all that...
I'm sorry...
But I think this will be the last time we'll ever be seeing each other...
So you won't hear any more of my nonsense again...
Anyway, I don't think you want to see me ever again...
So...
Thanks so much for your meal...
And your hospitality...
Towards a total stranger like me...
Goodbye...
Regards,
Roy

He placed it on the coffee table and left my hostel quietly. When he was downstairs, he looked up at my hostel room again.

Roy's thoughts: Thanks for your invite... I guess I won't be hungry when I get on my way...

He turned and started walking away.

I walked back from the restroom to my hostel room. When I went in, I noticed that Roy was no longer around, and I saw the note on my coffee table. I felt a pang of guilt. Did he leave cos I made him feel unwelcomed? I must really be a bad host... I sat on the sofa where Roy had sat earlier. I felt something beneath me. I reached beneath me and got hold of something. I took it up and realised that it was a handphone. And it wasn't mine. Oh gosh, it must be Roy's!

I got up, grabbed my keys and ran out of my hostel room. I ran out of the hostel block and looked around aimlessly. Where could he be? There were too many possibilities! I looked down at the snow to think, and noticed a trail of tracks heading towards the bus stop. Without thinking, I ran towards that direction. True enough I saw Roy standing at the bus stop! And a bus had just reached the stop and he was going to get on-board.

Ying: ROY!!!!! ROY!!!! WAIT!!!!

When he heard my shouts, he turned around and looked at me in surprise. I ran towards him and when I reached him, I was panting like crazy.

Ying: Your.... your....

Roy: Hang on... catch your breath first...

I took a few deep breaths and swallowed hard. I raised my hand holding his handphone.

Ying: Your.... your.... hand.... handphone....

Roy looked at me in disbelief. He didn't believe that I would run out after him after what he did, just to return his handphone to him. Moreover, it was something that he would no longer need, anymore...

Roy: You ran out all the way to give this back to me?

Ying: Yeah....

Roy: But how did you know where I went?

Ying: I don't know... I just tried my luck...

Bus driver: Hey... this is the last bus... So do you guys wanna get on-board or not?

We looked up at the bus driver then back at each other. Roy turned and replied.

Roy: No thanks... Sorry for keeping you waiting...

The bus drove off, leaving the two of us at the bus stop. There was an awkward silence. As we didn't know what to say to each other.

Ying: Aichooooooo.....

Roy: Are you okay?

Ying: I think so...

I rubbed my shoulders with my hands, then I realised something was missing. I looked down at myself, and realised that I had forgotten to wear my jacket in my haste to run after him.

Ying: I think I should be getting back then... Since you've got your handphone back...

I turned to walk back towards my hostel.

Ying: Aiiiiichoooooo aiiiiichoooooo.....

I shivered as a gust of cold wind blew past me. I quickened my pace as I was feeling the chill crawl slowly into my skin. Suddenly I felt a jacket cover my shivering body. I looked up and saw Roy's hands placing his own jacket over me.

Ying: Roy... It's okay... I'll be fine once I reach my hostel... You need your jacket more than me, cos you're out here.... And you've just missed the last bus...

Roy: I'm not leaving yet.... I'll accompany you back to your hostel first... It's not safe for you to be out here alone at night... Let's go...

He placed his arms around me and ushered me towards my hostel.

Ying's thoughts: Actually he is quite caring, when he is not irritating me...

We entered my hostel, and sat down at the sofa. There was an awkward silence again. I know he had just missed the last bus. So he won't be able to get home. Should I offer to let him stay for the night? But isn't it too weird? Cos he is still a total stranger...

Roy: Erm... I think I'd better be going...

He got up and walked towards the door.

Ying: But... you've just missed the last bus... How are you going to get home?

Roy: I'll find a way...

I got up from the sofa.

Ying: Wait...

He paused in his tracks.

Ying: Erm... If you don't mind, why don't you stay here for the night and leave tomorrow when there's a bus, and when it's not so cold...

His entire face lit up when he heard that.

Roy: You sure?

Ying: Yeah...

Roy: Okay...

Ying: But you'll need to sleep on the couch... cos I don't have anywhere else for you... I don't have a guest room, or guest bed...

Roy: Anywhere's fine...

Ying: Alright.... So I guess... I'll let you rest then... I'll get you a blanket and a pillow...

I walked towards my cupboard to get him a new blanket and a pillow. When I walked back out, he was sitting on the sofa already.

Ying: Here... Goodnight... Merry Christmas...

I turned to walk to my bed.

Roy: Thanks... Goodnight.... Merry Christmas to you too...

I climbed onto my bed and turned to face the other side, so that he won't see me sleeping. Roy looked at me as I slept and got onto the sofa to sleep too.

TVXQ - SHINE

Yoochun:
1,2,3
Jaejoong:
Irreplaceable precious person
No other person can change that fact
You're my precious, you
You are the one I believe in
My light always

Yoochun:
1,2,3
Yoochun:
I can't see you even though you are next to me
Finding that far away places dream
Yunho:
I just found out that the place I can go to comfortably
Is true happiness
Junsu:
I can't pass only one person
I want to protect your smiling face that that gave me courage

Jaejoong:
Irreplaceable precious person
No other person can change that fact
You're my precious, you
From now on, always always be together
Be alright

Love will always remain here
Let's walk together towards the future
Everything trusting in each other
You are my light always

Yunho:
Sometimes whining cutely
Sometimes putting on a strong front
Existing for the true me
Yoochun:
Every uneasy day and all the tears
Tomorrow's fate may still continue
Junsu:
We will definitely be walking at the same time
Therefore, everything about you I know

Changmin:
I want to envelop in my arms
The precious person
I wish that you will always be smiling Happiness
Even if we are separated
Within my heart
I will always be calling your name

Because you are my haven
That's why I can spread my wings and fly
Everything Be it day or night
You are my light always

Jaejoong:
Irreplaceable precious person
No other person can change that fact
You're my precious, you
From now on, always always be together
Be alright

Love will always remain here
Let's walk together towards the future
Everything trusting in each other
You are my light always

Serendipity 奇缘 - Chapter 44

Chapter 44: Will you....

Max: Hyung, what are we supposed to do now? You know that I can't cook and you too can't too.

Micky: The only way left is to call the girls back to help us. I think they should be able to cook better since they are girls.

Max: But, what if the girls can't cook too. Then, we will get a scolding from Jaejoong-hyung.

Micky: I think we'll just take things one at a time now... We should go ahead and buy the food from the supermarket first, and while we're on the way, call the rest and let them know what we got ourselves into...

Max: Okay...

Micky and Max entered the lift and left for the supermarket, totally unsure of what's gonna happen next.
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Meanwhile, Jaejoong was pushing Kiki back into her room to rest.

Kiki: Joongie...

Jaejoong: Hmmm??

Jaejoong stopped pushing the swivel chair and stooped over to see what Kiki wanted.

Kiki: Are you sure you want to make the rest cook dinner?

Jaejoong smiled and replied firmly.

Jaejoong: Yes. Why?

Kiki: Erm... Just for your information, I hope the rest can cook... Cos Fifi and Theo are hopeless in cooking...

Jaejoong walked over to face Kiki and squatted down in front of her.

Jaejoong: I think they'll be fine... Anyway, I'm not planning on eating whatever they are conjuring up...

Kiki: WHAT?!!!! YOU'RE NOT??!!!!

Jaejoong grinned a cheeky smile.

Kiki: Then why are you commanding them to cook as punishment???

Jaejoong: Well... it may look like cooking is the punishment, but the REAL punishment is having to eat the food that they conjure up... I'm not eating the food they cook... I'll make proper food suitable for human consumption for you and myself... They can enjoy the food they cook... I'm locking them out later... So they can't enter your apartment to get our food...

Kiki looked at Jaejoong in disbelief, not knowing whether to burst out laughing or not.

Jaejoong: Why? You think I am being too harsh on them?

Kiki: Erm... I don't know what to say... But it is a bit harsh... Cos I think they'll most likely end up eating instant cup noodles... Your apartment has that right? Otherwise it'll REALLY be too harsh... Cos they'll go hungry...

Jaejoong: Hmmm.... I don't know if we still have anymore of that...

Kiki: Then you better take some from my cupboard over to your apartment first when they are still not back yet... Don't want them to go hungry...

Kiki nudged Jaejoong to go bring the cup noodles over to his apartment first before the rest came back from grocery shopping.

Jaejoong: Why are you always so considerate? Always thinking of others and not about yourself? Just let them be, they can always order in, or eat out if the food they cook is beyond human consumption...

Kiki: Oh yeah... I forgot... Didn't think of that...

Jaejoong smiled. He reached up and tousled Kiki's hair. Kiki tried to get her hair back to normal after his hand left her head.

Jaejoong: You are such a scatterbrain... Always so blur... hee hee...

Kiki: Yeah I guess I am quite blur...

Jaejoong: So I can push you back to your room now to rest right?

Kiki: Do I HAVE to? I am bored of lying on the bed. Can't sleep anymore... Otherwise I can't sleep later in the night...

Kiki looked at Jaejoong pleadingly.

Jaejoong: Then what do you suggest?

Kiki: Can I... Go to the study? And get some work done?

Kiki made her most pitiful face at Jaejoong, hoping that he would give in to her.

Jaejoong: *sigh* I guess there's no stopping a workaholic from working...

Kiki: Is that a YES?

Jaejoong nodded his head.

Kiki: YIPPEEE!!!!!!

Kiki shouted excitedly, and leaned forward to give Jaejoong a hug.

Kiki: You are the BEST..... erm.... Yeo.... Yeo.. Yeobo??? EVER!!!!

When Jaejoong heard Kiki call him yeobo, his lips curved into a sweet smile, and he put his arms around Kiki to return her hug.

Jaejoong: Yes... I am... And you are the best... the best hyungsoo-nim... the guys can ever have....

Kiki pulled herself away when she heard that, and she tried to manoeuvre herself to the study on her own before Jaejoong could react. But she wasn't fast enough. He caught her chair and pulled her back in front of him.

Jaejoong: Hey... how come you are running away when I am talking to you... I thought you said I was the best yeobo EVER?

Kiki: Yeah I did... But I wanna start on my work now...

Kiki tried to push her chair again.

Jaejoong: Oh no.... you don't....

But Jaejoong placed both his hands on either side of her chair to block her from escaping from the chair. Seeing her escape routes blocked by Jaejoong, Kiki had to sit there obediently to listen to what Jaejoong wanted to say.

Jaejoong looked peculiarly serious, and he was staring straight into Kiki's eyes, and that made Kiki rather uncomfortable. Especially after what he had just said. She fidgeted in her chair uncomfortably.

Jaejoong: I know we haven't exactly been together for a very long time... And we've spent most of that time together, apart... This is a diary I made to record all the times and memories we have together... And I wanna give it to you...

Jaejoong passed a thick diary to Kiki.

Jaejoong: I just want to say that you are the most precious person to me, and you are irreplaceable... No other person can change that fact...

Kiki: Joongie.. I....

Jaejoong: Sshhhhh.... just let me finish what I wanna say first okay? And I'll let you go to your work...

Kiki nodded, and kept quiet.

Jaejoong: From now on, I hope that we will always be together... I want to fill more and more diaries with our memories together... I want us to walk together towards the future, trusting in each other in everything... You are like the light in my life... My precious love...

Jaejoong took her hands in his. Kiki took a deep breath and swallowed hard. Her heart was pounding like crazy, and she was afraid to listen on.

Jaejoong: Sarang hamnida. Jeorang gyeoronae juseyo?

Kiki gave a blur look, cos she only understood the sarang hamnida which meant I love you...

Jaejoong: I meant... I love you... Will you... be mine.... forever?

Jaejoong whisked out a ring and held it before Kiki. She stared at Jaejoong with widened surprise. She didn't expect him to do something like this so suddenly. Especially when they have only been together for such a short time. She didn't know what to say. She just stared at the ring in shock. Soon tears started welling in her eyes, as reality hit her. She was too happy for words.

Jaejoong: Kiki... Why are you crying? If you don't want to, it's okay... I can accept that... You don't have to cry... You're making me all worried and confused now...

Jaejoong reached out his hand to wipe the tears from Kiki's face.

Kiki: Ye... I... will...

Jaejoong stopped in his tracks.

Jaejoong: Huh? What did you say?

Kiki: I said... I will...

Now it was Jaejoong's turn to be overwhelmed. He grabbed Kiki by her shoulders.

Jaejoong: Did you say you will be mine forever?!!!! Did you?!!!

Kiki nodded.

Jaejoong: Oh....Jagi.... you've just made me the most happy man on the whole wide world...

Jaejoong pulled Kiki into his arms and hugged her tightly.

Kiki: Joongie... What's Jagi now? And aren't you forgetting something?

Jaejoong pulled himself away from Kiki and looked at her and smiled.

Jaejoong: Jagi means darling, honey or sweetie...

Kiki: Oh... Yeobo and Jagi are the same...

Kiki looked down at the ring in his hand. And Jaejoong followed her eyes and realised what she meant. He took her hand and slipped the ring into her wedding ring finger. Then he kissed her gently on the hand with the ring, and looked up at her. Kiki was smiling at Jaejoong, and he reached forward to plant a passionate kiss on her lips.

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* Note: Inspired by the song SHINE...